I'd like to point out I'm older than three.

[Just because you still find that funny. The truth is that now that you have some distance from the whole ordeal you can admit that maybe that whole rant was more genuine, and you were looking for someone to help. It's selfish and irrational and stupid, and you won't repeat it.

You laugh at the question.]

I'll let you know once I experience it. I get short bursts of free will, and then it's back to being a... what did he call it? A "puppet on a string."